i am moving much slower these days, folks. not in a lethargic kind of way. in a peaceful kind of way. after so many years of reaching, going, wanting, stretching i am finally being still. my mind finally feels quieter. still. i did not think that was possible with two children but i am trying not to question it too much.
there have been some really beautiful things happening in life, in my heart lately. the last few months with straton have probably been my favorite period so far with him. he is hilarious, smart, interesting, creative, clever and so much fun. although he has has two-year old moments of stubbornness, he is typically such a gem. obedient. sweet. and lately so affectionate. these days with the boys it seems to be less about having the right toys and more about finding the right adventures. everything seems so exciting to straton and sawyer — i love love love seeing straton’s imagination start to grow.
maybe its because it’s fall, and i love fall. maybe its my state of mind. but i am smiling more. my chest expanding wider when i am on long slightly chilly walks with my boys. im laughing more headily. kissing my husband more deeply. resisting less and embracing more.